I totally binged, what should i do?

Ha, I totally agree with your statement - you are driving yourself crazy. Looks like to me you have an eating disorder (a mental illness). You do realize that your body uses about 1200 calories alone to just keep you alive? You're destroying your body and yourself - it shows already. You feel very weak and cold - signs that your body is starting to shut down. If you seriously want to stay alive and live to see yourself graduating/growing older (I ume you're in your teens by the way you "speak"), you need to re-evaluate yourself and get some help. Yahoo! Answers is not going to help you, in fact you'd probably have people respond negatively to your post. Do you realize that you're already losing yourself to food? You're counting every single thing you eat and worry about getting pudgy, which I'm sure you aren't. Your life is revolving around the thought of food- how are you able to enjoy life to its fullest when you are the way you are currently? I pray that you get the much needed professional help you so desperately need.